Sing with me people....not really following thru the actual tune but pandai-pandai lar.


Chapped lips and swollen eyes,
Haven't slept for 3 whole nights,
I cry.....coz,
I'm all zombie-fied.

Mugging till my brain is numb
Yet so, I still feel dumb
Why am I alive....?

HELP! come this way,
Don't go away
Don't leave me stranded....!
Spm's on it's way,
Hate counting down each day
Feel the Burn?
Of it's Fire
God, it's giving me a fright!!!!!

Watch out!! It'll change your lives
Turn good from the dark side
Won't lie.....
Wanna eat cherry pie. ( -.-")
Buckle down, enjoy the ride
It's the ending of your high school life
We can do this right!!

So, go do you thang,
it's a last fling
Who said high school was boring?!
Talk about challenging,
Hey? what am I mumbling...?
Just study,
Alright?
like SPM is tomorrow night!

Oh, all the pressure's around me!
PMR sitters are so damn lucky
So scared I just can cry
try being me tonight!?!

What can I say?
In the end today,
There is no escape...
Need to work hard & pray
Till comes that day...

I won't freak,
I'll give my best try,
And after that I'll be...
ALRIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I love my baby.Wanna see her?!?
There she is! Her name's Jessie btw.

=) I love her!

Anyways, my baby here's scared of the rain and so usually when that happens we let her in but only to a certain extent. Like coz, my mum doesn't really like the whole dog in the house thing so yea.

However now, this sweetie pie monkey for a dog, (expressions of love, people) is pushing the limit. As I was sitting here plugged to the screen, I heard her creeping into the computer room! And naturally I was like WTHell?! and quickly got her to her usual spot.

Then, less than 2 minutes later, madam comes back crawling. It's funny, honestly, not to mention cute but the consequences of being lenient might be disastrous! esp. when my mum's involved. Drag her back to the front and pushed her under the couch telling her that it's safe enough there. She stays...for awhile.

The incident repeats itself a couple more times and the finally,

Hmmm, she finally settled under another couch. Further in the house though...( -.-")
I hope my mum doesn't mind that.


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I feel so unprepared right now,
Feel like a moo-ing cow!
How can this not affect you,
I'm frustrated that I need to go poo-poo!


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I've got one last chance to get myself together
I can't lose no more time it's now or never
And I'll try to remember who I used to be

I've got one last chance to get myself together, oh

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• Graduation Night;

• '6 days, November ain't counted, yall.'

• lonely

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I’m not attempting to change the world in one blog or with one song. I’m just trying to keep the conversation moving along. My voice is just a small contribution to the big ongoing conversation that helped man live past his 40s. It’s the same conversation that overcame apartheid and is the same conversation that is establishing equality for all. It’ll be this conversation that will eventually lead to marriage equality and the end of all wars. I trust it is this kind of open dialogue that will bring a few more people up in the world with love and happiness as something they use in life to the point that they can pass it along to their kids. This is age old vernacular and its all been said before by many a hippy and scholar alike. I’m just one man’s view of life. And I enjoy my freedom and realizations in the telling of it. This is the era of the seeker; those redesigning their lives for sustainability and those redefining the God Myth for the one love and fair treatment of all of Earth’s inhabitants. I think this is an important time to be alive and I am grateful to be in action. You reading this means you are in action too. Welcome to our renaissance.

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It was like a carnival, one held in a place which appeared to be a junkyard - only instead of being filled with scrap metals and abandoned cars, it was an arena of teenagers in their wild frenzy. The place was packed and there I stood, alone, gazing around like a lost sheep in the woods. I was looking for him, but who?


My sight shifted to the platform, a makeshift stage made of it. Everything was anarchic, and so was the boy who took the centre. It was his day after all, but he didn't seem to enjoy it. Like his presence was just to fill in the blank of the situation. Stone looked at me as I looked at him.

"Hmm."
My mind answered itself. "Not the one, keep on searching..."came the silent conscious voice which always told me what to do. I moved on. Walking through the massive crowd, I spotted a familiar face. Rudy Cox, waved at me, beckoned me to move over to where he was. Undecided, I continued screening the place. He was standing under a zinc-roofed structure...an incomplete gazebo. Not so far from him was Joe. Despite the dense herd of people between us, I could see the look on his face, disappointment, as I chose not to venture there. "He ain't the one either,"came the serious whisper again.

(something like this minus the fence like thingy and the pillars are made up of cheap woo, the roof of zinc and the surroundings, a simple, gray space filled with crazy teenagers.)

I continued pacing, unsure of each step. Then, I met him. "Ooh,"my mind spat. I looked up as his stood on a flattened vehicle. The silent murmurs of my conscience disappeared. My heartbeat nothing more than an ant's speech. He gave me his hand.

"Take my hand, follow me,"he said. Almost immediately, my hand was in his and though I dare not look at his face, I followed blindly. He pulled me through the assemblage, we jumped from car to car, and ran close by one another. Though the blatant and loud circus around, we seemed to move in a medium of silence and us. I let my heart soar.

This is it...the moment...

We reached an empty street somehow, somewhere. There actually was a stretch of streets, and a few rows of shoplots. The roads were empty, excluding the one or two people walking in the distance. It was a real silence now, with just him and I. My heart pounded harder, like in an accelerating mode as I felt him behind me, breathing heavily after the marathon we had. We still walked fast, hand in hand.


"I need to tell you something..."
The words he choked still keep my lips pursed as before. He asked,"What now?" and for some odd reason, I answered,"My mum..." There was a pause and our paced slowed. He was so, so close to me. I closed my eyes. Heaven knows what ran through my mind at that second because I suddenly stopped and so did he.

No words came from him, but I replied the unasked question. "Wait."I said. "Just spit it out..."
I didn't want to wait no longer, I had to know. His heavy breathing never stopped and I could feel the burn of the uncomfortable circumstances.

I woke up.

I rubbed my eyes and unable to speak, I got out of bed and into the bathroom. I stood in front of the mirror and stared back at that girl. I shook my head and said,"It's not meant to be."

That boy was someone I used to really really like and could possible be the person I still like. But, I don't know, for as time changes, people change too....



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Rubynie Shan

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